I've called you chicken head, and shawty, or hey thick'ems,
I've been disrespecting you, with the same ol' excuse,
That I've been talking this way for so long girl '
So, what makes it okay for anyone to call us this? And why do we let them?
It seems like everywhere I look these days girls are doing things that I wouldn't have even known about when I was there age. It sucks to look in the mirror and know that without some serious plastic surgery there's no way I could ever be as beautiful as the famous women any and all of my future lovers will admire.
Being degraded on an everyday basis pretty much happens to everyone; even if noone actually says shit like that to your face - sometimes even if people dont actually say anythign at all; it just feels like you just can't walk out the door and be compared to all your friends.
Which sucks balls, because I actually have the most amazingly beautiful friends in the entire world. Seriously - I'm not being your average whiney 17-year old. My friends are all very, very good looking. And most of them have the advantage of at least a couple of years more maturity and sophistication.
So I guess when someone shows you attention and makes you feel like you belong with such stunning people; you don't really give that much of a fuck what they call you. Because you can brush it off as a joke.
But unfortunately; most of the guys I talk to actually think I am just their bitch.
They are so, SO wrong!
I own their asses (and by asses I mean bank accounts ;) )
So anyway; latest updates...
Sparky : This little piggy went to market etc etc ... but my little Sparky went wee wee wee into a new job at the coast 2.5hrs away and barely ever comes home. So that's kind of put a dent in the whole idea. Good bitch he's turning out to be :/
N 20 : I seriously had enough when he licked my ear. Sometimes nice guys, are just that. Nice. But not good in any other way, trust me. See ya mate!
School : To be honest it's really not happening. In the past 3 weeks I've been to maybe 4/60 classes. My teachers must love me... I'm not disrupting other students for a change...
ModelBoy : I saw this guy months ago; and was forced to hang out with him as we had friends who were dating. Once he got over the fact I really didn't care we weren't seeing eachother anymore, shit was chill. I don't really hang with that crowd anymore; but the only girl I still have time for who's friends with him, had no idea we had that sort of relationship. When he told her the other day she was totally shocked. And she came into work and told me that he also said, 'Wish I hadnt fucked that up - she's hot'.
Sweetheart... so do I.
Because if you fucked like you kissed Id've kept you.
At least for a while.
The only akward thing is that he keeps showing up wherever I am. And it's kind of annoying when all the girls at wherever go 'Oh, he's fucking hot'. And all I can say is, 'been there', because I haven't done that.
The Ex : The only guy I ever actually had a proper relationship with. I was barely 16 and he was a year older. We had fun; but when it all got serious we cracked under the pressure. I broke his heart and it broke mine.
Until two days ago we hadn't talked in over a year. But on a whim I added him on good old Facebook and we've talked a couple of times.
I didn't really realise how much I've missed having him to talk to. I hope we don't stop talking.
But I hope both of us are sensible enough to realise that it's really, REALLY over. And it wouldn't work.
By both of us I mean mainly me.
Anyway,
Bed Time .
I gotta get my beauty sleep. If more ex's keep showing their faces I better be making them jealous.
Bitch out x
